The Journey Continues

My husband and I have been praying for a while now about where God would have us, and what His vision for us is.  We’ve been talking about our passions and how they affect us, how we should be affecting others with them, and how they aren’t being used.  For the record, both of us have the same one, for the most part – Small Groups.  I can’t stress the importance of being actively intimate with a small group.  That’s a whole other post.  Anyway…

 

We’ve been feeling that we weren’t in a place that was right for us, but not willing to just jump ship without a word from God.  When I say place, let me clarify – church.  I don’t want to mamsy-pansy about what I’m trying to say or be speaking in cryptoquote.  We wanted God to tell us to go, or that it was okay to go, before we went.  We wanted to be told to stay, and we’ve been praying hard about our attitudes, our vision and our hearts. 

 

This past Sunday, we both got clarification and a word from God about moving on from where we are.  It was like God made very clear the path He had for us and the path that we were on, and it wasn’t the same path at all.  That isn’t to say that one path is better than the other, just different.  It isn’t easy to change directions, to leave where we are and go down a different road, and parts of me wrestle with what that looks like in a practical way.  But I can tell you this, I have been completely at peace with the decision since Sunday evening.  I know that it is God’s peace, because it is there despite all my self-inflicted pressure regarding the practical aspects. 

 

What I’m not sure of is where, exactly, God is leading us.  I know that we’ve been led out of where we were, but I’m not sure where we’ll end up yet.  Right now, we’re just continuing to pray and trust Him to guide us.  I don’t know what this looks like as far as when we leave completely, on what precise Sunday we stop going, on which day I stop doing all of the things I do.  I’m not sure. 

 

Right now, there is no one to do what I am doing for this church.  And even if there was a person, they have yet to purchase the equipment.  What I use does not belong to the church, but to another person.  I feel a certain responsibility, a certain amount of duty.  At the same time, I really want to be sure I’m hearing from God about where to go and what to do for Him. 

 

So… right now… I am anxious.  But I am only anxious about wanting to do things to make my Father proud, to keep walking in the footsteps that He outlines for me.  I am anxious to see where God is taking us and what He will allow us to be a part of.  All I can do is pray for God to lead me, because without Him, I have no idea where to start walking.  But through Him, the journey continues.