I’m reading “The Deity Formerly Known As God” by Jarrett Stephens right now. Very interesting book. The first part is debunking our incorrect perceptions of God, the characters that we see Him as that are not true. The second goes into accurate images. One of the first perceptions it goes against is Cop Around the Corner, waiting to catch us doing something wrong. I had a phase where I saw God as that, but thankfully, not anymore.
However, he brought up an interesting point in this chapter. Even though we know what God gave as the 10 Commandments, we often have our own perception of what God’s 10 Commandments to us are. We have an internal set of “rules” we believe God has given us, a list of don’ts. The book challenges us to think about what those rules are, where and why we started believing them and how they shape our lives.
So here are the 10 Commandments, According To Me:
1. Thou shalt not be sexually immoral, outside or INside of marriage. This would include anything you wouldn’t do in front of your mother (which greatly limits things for some and gives a free pass to others, I suppose.) It rules out the obvious before marriage, but at the same time, makes a lot of things ‘gray’ IN marriage. The Catholic / Baptist version of this would be “Thou shalt not be sexual or sensual unless you’re making a kid. Otherwise, feel great guilt.” For me, this led to too much exploration, too much pre-marital sex, too much compromising my value, and guilt. Later, it translated into marital problems and challenges that I will face… forever. Big, BIG minefield.
2. Thou shalt not cuss. But, if you’re going to, at least avoid the ones with God’s name in any way attached to it, or the ones that start with “F”. Yeah, this is a hard one. I struggle with this daily hourly. I grew up never even hearing the word “butt” until I was at least 11. But somehow, after that, things went awry. Maybe it was rebellion or just the effect of the words, but I used them liberally and forcefully. While I am mostly good at controlling it in most situations, I should just get it under control. Result: Guilt. Seriously? Why can’t I just stop? Is it because I don’t want to use dorky substitute words like “foo” and “crud” and “zowie” and “ding dang”? Would I do it in front of God? Much as I hate to say it, I’m afraid that my gut level response to His awesomeness would be an inappropriate utterance. Doubt that’d please Him.
3. Thou shalt not divorce. Wow, can you say failure? I go back and forth with this one in the scriptures, throwing in reasoning as to why and situations and His plan and all of that. Either way, it’s a huge mess up, mistake and sin. It will affect me for all of my life, despite being blessed with an amazing husband now. Still, I’m divorced. Marked. It might as well be on my forehead. The result of it – you guessed it, guilt. God never intended for people to have to deal with the nuclear fall out that comes as a result of divorce.
4. Thou shalt not be have bad manners. Hmm, this one we can thank my grandmother for. If I heard “Cleanliness is next to Godliness,” once, it was at least ten times a day. It apparently also applied to my table manners, and just manners in general. Etiquette lessons, corrections, nudges. I had them. Yes, I could dine with the Queen of England and be confident of my manners, but really? That makes me no closer to God. That’s the good side. The bad side is the judgmental one. Not pretty, is it? Mmhmm, and that results in… guilt.
5. Thou shalt not be late. I really think God ought to reconsider and make this one of His 10. It would be so much nicer if people operated as if it were. It’s just rude, like you don’t have a clock or something, as if your actions affected no one other than yourself. (Clearly, I’m still battling this.) Needless to say, this causes a great deal of friction in my marriage as he is never ready when I think he should be. He’s always asking me to just slow down and not be in such a rush. Would the world stop if we got there at 6:05 instead of 6:00? No. Am I that important? No. Do I still feel like I need to be on time? Yes. Result – guilt, for making such a big deal of something so silly.
6. Thou shalt not leave food on your plate. There are starving children in Africa for godsakes. Sally Struthers says so, plus my dad worked hard to provide for the family. It’s a sin to be wasteful. One day when I work and buy the groceries, I’ll understand. (I can’t be the only person to have heard this stuff.) Funny though, I must internally believe that it is wrong to leave food. I rarely do. And when I do leave food, I feel horrible, disrespectful and guilty. Probably wouldn’t be that big a deal if I didn’t put much food on said plate, which leads us to …
7. Thou shalt not be fat. Never says anything in the Bible about someone being fat. They probably never were, having to walk everywhere and carry water and stuff. Sure, there is mention of gluttony, but what an ugly word. I just love food, a lot. And well, I’m not a big fan of exercise. I’m reminded of the verse about everything in moderation. I don’t think moderation is what I had in mind regarding the pork chop I had for dinner last night. So, yeah, guilt. Funny though, this is one of those things that is just not discussed at church. I’m not saying I want it to be. It’s horribly sensitive and a total minefield. Logically, it would seem that it should be discussed, but emotionally, I’m not sure I would ever go back if it was. How’s that for two – faced? Which of course results in guilt, and brings us to the next one.
8. Thou shalt not be two-faced or hypocritical. I would imagine that this is common sense. But really? Why is it that people still are, and especially in church? Be who you are in church as well as the grocery store and at home. We can’t make any progress till we get real with ourselves and each other. This is pretty important. However, I will admit to being judgmental about it and writing people off when I believe that they are hypocrites. Clearly, that’s a problem and not my place to do that. Thus, we have guilt.
9. Thou shalt not make Jesus into a pansy. Don’t sugar coat the gospel for me. I’m an adult, I can handle it. And don’t make Jesus into some lame, metrosexual pansy. He was the son of a carpenter. He walked huge distances and worked. I doubt he was a string bean – physically. On top of that, uhm, hello, he’s God’s son. Definitely not pansy. And while the gospel is based on grace, that does not give us license to live like heathens. He is coming again. He will judge everyone. He sees us. He is not so stupid as to be fooled by our week of sins and fake sorrowful tears on Sunday. Big ole pet peeve. However, I’ve done it… banked on grace. Yeah, I’m guilty. And lastly,
10. Thou shalt not be a lazy Christian. We’re supposed to serve. Just going to church doesn’t constitute serving. But, fine line. Motives are important, the spirit of serving. But to just be a pew-warmer, ugh. That’s the height of laziness. To me. Then again, I have no idea what people are going through, why they are or are not involved at whatever level I think is appropriate. And of course, that makes me feel… guilty.
Before you get judgmental of all of these… keep in mind what your own may be. Though, these are my faults, my shortcomings. I know they aren’t right. (Thus the point.)
Notice two similarities in all of my commandments: First of all, they all result in guilt, and secondly, they are all mandated or tweaked at least, by me. I will never be good enough to deserve what God so freely gives. I will never be able to make myself blameless, worthy or stainless. I will not be able to be Polly Perfect. But the awesome thing is that through Christ, because of what He did for me, that’s how God sees me! He sees me as spotless already. That’s so cool.
And while these may be close to His rules, they aren’t exactly. And I’m not God. It isn’t for me to make up rules. It isn’t up to me to perform as if I’m in some constant talent show struggle. All I can do is be close to Christ and strive to be more like Him every day.
What are your commandments, according to you? How do they affect your life?